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the next time we met without masks, it was a fight to the death
I killed us both
so here we are now
with him being ridiculously helpful
nice
hot
and the whole fucking reason I asked that question about sex!
the idiot still didn't take the clue!!
he keeps acting like he likes me then it's like he's
I don't know second-guessing?
remembering I'm the reason he's here in the first place???
I just
don't think I could handle it
if I did initiate and
it turned out I was wrong, I guess?
I killed us both
so here we are now
with him being ridiculously helpful
nice
hot
and the whole fucking reason I asked that question about sex!
the idiot still didn't take the clue!!
he keeps acting like he likes me then it's like he's
I don't know second-guessing?
remembering I'm the reason he's here in the first place???
I just
don't think I could handle it
if I did initiate and
it turned out I was wrong, I guess?
That's... the part I have no idea on. I- feel like... Silco was there, but I also... saw Vi there. And... Caitlyn...
I even saw myself there.
Literally the only detail I'm sure about is that it was Singed, and that I... died on that table. So it-... it wasn't me that killed me. I think... it was Singed, and that he was trying to turn me into something... worse than I already was.
[Her fingernails are biting into her own hands, her gaze shifting from Ekko to the floor, and then back again.]
I even saw myself there.
Literally the only detail I'm sure about is that it was Singed, and that I... died on that table. So it-... it wasn't me that killed me. I think... it was Singed, and that he was trying to turn me into something... worse than I already was.
[Her fingernails are biting into her own hands, her gaze shifting from Ekko to the floor, and then back again.]
| | [He grits his teeth, jawline tensing. Slowly, his gaze falls, before a frustrated dammit! escapes.] Why does shit like this just keep happening? Fuck that guy... [It's definitely the strongest language he's used since he's gotten here. And the look in his eyes? It's truly murderous.] |
Given... some of the other stuff he's done? It's not too surprising. It was his... experiment... that killed your... your dad. Deckard...
I didn't even know it until... I got a little curious, one day. Paid a little more attention to that guy. Guess there's a reason I never had a good feeling about him. Aside from the obvious, anyway...
[She hates... all of this. All of it. Hell, Singed is the reason even Silco-...]
... You know... Silco had me injecting him, daily? Early on. I didn't really ask what it was, at first. Then... I found out. I was injecting Shimmer into his eye. The same time every... single day. And I never really considered it was probably super messed up, because he was- he... took me in when I really thought I had nowhere to go!
He told me all about how Vander nearly killed him, and how... he was betrayed by everyone he loved, when he was younger. So I thought-! maybe... just once... there was someone who'd accept me, even at my craziest...
[Her face is streaked with a mixture of pink tears and clear ones.]
Even when I reunited with Vi... she was still... calling me Powder. I'd correct her, and it was... still just... Powder. She didn't want me. [Only Powder. Always Powder. The person she couldn't be - not without lying to herself.] So I- I know, Ekko. I know... Silco's one of the worst people... in the entire. World. He does these horrible things, including making kids work in his Shimmer factory, and destroying all kinds of lives! He... is obsessed with making Zaun, and... there's nothing he wouldn't give to make it happen. He'd... probably give me to Piltover.
[Voicing that thought hurts.]
But at... the end of the day, he never demanded I be Powder, and he gave me a home. He never... actually made me do anything I didn't want to do. He just... knew how to convince me... really well.
[Jinx has realized quite a lot. Including that... Silco had been manipulating her all those years.]
I didn't even know it until... I got a little curious, one day. Paid a little more attention to that guy. Guess there's a reason I never had a good feeling about him. Aside from the obvious, anyway...
[She hates... all of this. All of it. Hell, Singed is the reason even Silco-...]
... You know... Silco had me injecting him, daily? Early on. I didn't really ask what it was, at first. Then... I found out. I was injecting Shimmer into his eye. The same time every... single day. And I never really considered it was probably super messed up, because he was- he... took me in when I really thought I had nowhere to go!
He told me all about how Vander nearly killed him, and how... he was betrayed by everyone he loved, when he was younger. So I thought-! maybe... just once... there was someone who'd accept me, even at my craziest...
[Her face is streaked with a mixture of pink tears and clear ones.]
Even when I reunited with Vi... she was still... calling me Powder. I'd correct her, and it was... still just... Powder. She didn't want me. [Only Powder. Always Powder. The person she couldn't be - not without lying to herself.] So I- I know, Ekko. I know... Silco's one of the worst people... in the entire. World. He does these horrible things, including making kids work in his Shimmer factory, and destroying all kinds of lives! He... is obsessed with making Zaun, and... there's nothing he wouldn't give to make it happen. He'd... probably give me to Piltover.
[Voicing that thought hurts.]
But at... the end of the day, he never demanded I be Powder, and he gave me a home. He never... actually made me do anything I didn't want to do. He just... knew how to convince me... really well.
[Jinx has realized quite a lot. Including that... Silco had been manipulating her all those years.]
Edited 2025-09-22 01:32 (UTC)
[There's no response for a few minutes after Jinx finishes sending it all: they're reading it over. Finally:]
Alright. I have a few questions, so I'll go one question at a time.
First. If you'd ever decided you no longer wanted to work for Silco, would he have let you go unharmed?
[...They suspect they know the answer to that. But they want her to say it. And if they're wrong, that's still something more she's given them.]
Alright. I have a few questions, so I'll go one question at a time.
First. If you'd ever decided you no longer wanted to work for Silco, would he have let you go unharmed?
[...They suspect they know the answer to that. But they want her to say it. And if they're wrong, that's still something more she's given them.]
[Ekko's gaze raises again as he falls silent. The reminder has his pupils briefly dilatating, and he has to grip the sides of the chair to keep himself from being sucked back into that memory. The blood, Benzo's body, that thing—
He blinks a few times, gaze coming back up to Jinx. By that point, she'd moved onto Silco.
He's quiet the whole way through, brow furrowing once more at the sight of those tears. Tears that are... some of them are clear? He returns his focus to her.
Once the words end, the silence that follows is heavy. A soft sigh escapes Ekko. There's a glance around the room for tissues or anything that might do the trick.
After, he reaches up to put a hand on Jinx's shoulder.]
Was he good to you?
[There's a lot of things Ekko wouldn't forgive him for, and rightfully so.
Still, he wants to see what Jinx sees in that man. What she saw that had her outright fight Ekko, had them destroying the only relationship they could have had left of their old lives.
So the question isn't a trick. It's genuine. He'll concede if it means helping her feel just a little less fucked up.]
He blinks a few times, gaze coming back up to Jinx. By that point, she'd moved onto Silco.
He's quiet the whole way through, brow furrowing once more at the sight of those tears. Tears that are... some of them are clear? He returns his focus to her.
Once the words end, the silence that follows is heavy. A soft sigh escapes Ekko. There's a glance around the room for tissues or anything that might do the trick.
After, he reaches up to put a hand on Jinx's shoulder.]
Was he good to you?
[There's a lot of things Ekko wouldn't forgive him for, and rightfully so.
Still, he wants to see what Jinx sees in that man. What she saw that had her outright fight Ekko, had them destroying the only relationship they could have had left of their old lives.
So the question isn't a trick. It's genuine. He'll concede if it means helping her feel just a little less fucked up.]
We're going to talk.
This is not a request or an invitation, to be clear. You can give me a time and a place, or I'll pick both and find you.
Is that understood, Powder?
This is not a request or an invitation, to be clear. You can give me a time and a place, or I'll pick both and find you.
Is that understood, Powder?
There is no or. You pick a time and a place, or you refuse to decide and leave those entirely up to me. :)
[She looks up, her expression tensing a little before she looks down again.]
He treated me like-... like his daughter.
[Jinx hurriedly presses her palms to her eyes, shoulders trembling just a bit. Why did he have to act like he cared so much, just to be so-...??
It hurts... so much...]
He treated me like-... like his daughter.
[Jinx hurriedly presses her palms to her eyes, shoulders trembling just a bit. Why did he have to act like he cared so much, just to be so-...??
It hurts... so much...]
[Ekko watches her quietly for a moment, then draws a leg up onto the chair, arm swinging onto the knee and chin nestling upon that.]
Maybe that's what you were to him, then.
[Silco was still a terrible man. Still fucked up all to hell. And yet, he recognized that in some way - he must have tried with Jinx.
He looks up with a soft sigh.]
If it's true he was betrayed by everyone, then... maybe he saw some of that in you. Some of himself.
Good and bad's often more muddy than it is black and white.
Maybe that's what you were to him, then.
[Silco was still a terrible man. Still fucked up all to hell. And yet, he recognized that in some way - he must have tried with Jinx.
He looks up with a soft sigh.]
If it's true he was betrayed by everyone, then... maybe he saw some of that in you. Some of himself.
Good and bad's often more muddy than it is black and white.
Correction: "sad" doesn't enter anywhere into this. There's precious few things I get "sad" about, and this? This is not one of them.
This is one of the many things people have called me, yes!
Gladly.
...Ashton doesn't show up immediately, though; they need to pick out an outfit first. Jinx undoubtedly feels like shit right now, and they're not sure if they want to hammer it in by looking completely unruffled or soften that blow by going casual. Ultimately they end up opting for something they feel is roughly at the midpoint of the scale.
They're also doing this partially because they want to make her sweat. Look, they're mostly on sabbatical from being an evil son of a bitch, but sometimes the opportunity presents itself and they can't pass it up!
At about thirty-eight minutes past sending that last text, she raps twice on the door.
...Ashton doesn't show up immediately, though; they need to pick out an outfit first. Jinx undoubtedly feels like shit right now, and they're not sure if they want to hammer it in by looking completely unruffled or soften that blow by going casual. Ultimately they end up opting for something they feel is roughly at the midpoint of the scale.
They're also doing this partially because they want to make her sweat. Look, they're mostly on sabbatical from being an evil son of a bitch, but sometimes the opportunity presents itself and they can't pass it up!
At about thirty-eight minutes past sending that last text, she raps twice on the door.
Edited (that could be any door. you have no proof it was ever a specific door.) 2025-10-07 23:30 (UTC)
Shot in the dark, but tell me if I'm wrong: was keeping you in working shape technically a business investment for him?
[They readjust their viewpoint a little and then reapproach. Are they projecting? Maybe! (Yes.)
It's uncharitable to think about the Prince like that, Ashton knows; he was about as close to a decent man in his position as he was going to get, at least to her, and it's not his fault she was too goddamn good at killing to get to take a week or two off. There was always somewhere or someone or something that she could be useful to or for.]
[They readjust their viewpoint a little and then reapproach. Are they projecting? Maybe! (Yes.)
It's uncharitable to think about the Prince like that, Ashton knows; he was about as close to a decent man in his position as he was going to get, at least to her, and it's not his fault she was too goddamn good at killing to get to take a week or two off. There was always somewhere or someone or something that she could be useful to or for.]
Edited 2025-09-28 04:50 (UTC)
Might have gone differently if you wouldn't have been his anymore.
Back when I had a boss, he did genuinely threaten to have me killed a few times, though admittedly that was partially for dragging his daughter into situations she had no reason to be anywhere near. Hardly without cause.
Back when I had a boss, he did genuinely threaten to have me killed a few times, though admittedly that was partially for dragging his daughter into situations she had no reason to be anywhere near. Hardly without cause.
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